2005-07-22 - 6:09 p.m.
It's Friday, and I'm not going to Calgary and I'm still at work and it's after 6. So you know this is going to be a rant, I can't physically talk becuase if I do I'll cry. I DON'T CRY. But this stupid job has me crying too much.
My day, my 10:30 am I had already had 3 customers, the place open at 10, they just walked in and I had one appointment. Sigh.
And I had to get one of the other people here to do something for me and I knew that she would come back to me and tell me it's wrong or not good enough or something, she's a cow, nay, she is the OTHER C word....
I knew she would too... I can't breath without her telling me it's wrong, grrr, she makes me so mad.
My day was all hectic, I am expected to train the new girl, luckily she is a doll and has lent before (hmm is that the proper tense?) anyhow she just has to learn our products and what not. But I am brand new, and I get to train her, plus do the work of 1.5 lenders. How is this right?
Then my boss bitches me out for a minor thing that I have taken care of, infront of the new girl... and I hate him.
And I email my other boss requesting something she asked me to request and she is all snotty too. Why am I here? No really, why? Oh yeah it's becasue I feel loyal to them. Because according to them "I owe" them. Apparently that means making myself sick.
I can't sleep, I get massive headaches, I have no life, I've never been so stressed. For shits and giggles I should go see a doctor and see what they say.
Oh well, I should end this rant, at least I have a good job. I still think the company is exellent and that they are good to work for, I just shouldn't have done what I did just to move up... it's made me unhappy, and that's not good. Granted I've learned a lot, and I am greatful, but I don't like being unhappy. It sucks.
