2005-07-26 - 4:43 p.m.
I think I have a toooo-mour.
no seriously my head hurts so bad it feels like it's gonna crack open and bizzare alien things will come gushing out. Oddly enough that sounds like relief. Which is not spelt
R-O-L-A-I-D-S, apparently I watched too much TV as a child.
So I realized a few things today.
I'll recap.
1) I'm a drama queen.
but I'm still in the closet about it. I don't want to annouce to the world that I am a drama queen but I am. But it's a part of me, I can't help it I was born this way. Please don't judge me, just love and embrace me how I am.
2)my brother, although a grown up punk of all degrees still makes me laugh and he doesn't know it.
I was emailing my friend and we were talking about when we were little so I thought of my brother, seeing as we were both little together and being siblings and all, my childhood memories often involve him... anyhow
the funniest thing when we were little
he was doing a head stand at my grandparents he would have been 7 or 8, but we called it a hand stand, ie your hands were touching the ground, someone commented it was a head stand, casue it was head and hands, so they asked him later to do a head stand, so he gets in head stand position, head and hands on ground, legs in air, then lifts his arms, to his side, with this look of absolute seriousness and concentration on his face and put his hands to his side, then promptly falls over, but the look on his face is etched in my mind forever... still makes me giggle.
So maybe not funny to you, but the stoic look on his face cracked me up.
3)I am not the only basket case in my relationship with Adam, he is too. Ok not really I fully am the basket case, but he has his insecurities also. Kinda endearing. Who knew I could love him more? He told me some stuff regarding our realtionship and where we are and where I want us to be. It all made me think... I'll expand on that another day, you know the whole me thinking bit.
4) I am a girly girl! No really I am like 14. I told Adam, becasue I have an inability to keep my mouth shut, which day I would want to get married. Really, girls if you want to chase a guy off that just might do it. So backgroud... He has 2 friends getting married this weekend, one in Calgary and the next day one in northern Sask, 12 hours away. So I commented that this is a risk you take having a summer wedding and that I wouldn't want a summer wedding, rather a spring wedding, or a particular day. He looked at me funny so I contiuned. Nov. 5. It was my grandparents wedding day... it's justifiable to have that day picked out. So Adam looks a little frightened, but not too bad, more like he's laughing at me for being silly. So he comments that I would know the next time that day falls on a weekend. "Why yes Bob I do... you're the next contestant on your girlfriend is a basketcase!" Anyhow this year Nov. 5 is a Saturday, next year it's a Sunday. I'm a fool.... No I'm a girl who thought about this years ago, not just cause there is a boy in my life now. I am sure that he couldn't wait to get out of Drayton today!
So that concludes what I realized today, well the last 2 were really last night, but it works better saying they were today, (see no. 1)
I've watched a couple movies the last few days.
Friday Night Lights, DUMB
Lemoniy Snickets, Kinda dumb
Hitch, GREAT
and some girly girl ones that I am far too ashamed to mention, see #4, then #1.
Hmm my head feels a little better...
it's the creative stuff, losens all of the stagnant evil germies up or something.
bye.
have a nice day!
